On Realizing Things

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Honey and Ashes, Nadia Fares

Every now and again I’ll go silent on the internet. I’ll pull all the way back and completely cut myself off from engaging in most people’s things and disappear. I started doing this as an act of self-preservation as a child, peeling back the layers of self, and becoming inconspicuous so nobody could see me so I couldn’t be harmed. When so much of my childhood was lived, at home, in the shadows, in the stillness, as far away as I could be from my mother, who was usually pretty close, I think I’ve developed a way to navigate life from the periphery, while maintaining safety within myself, finding softness and play where I can and could.