Twenty Things

i'm gonna say 25

Hello it’s good to see you again.

It’s fun that now that i’m off the official tour i’m sorta coming back to my life and sinking back into things in an even deeper way. i’m seeing how strong my boundaries have gotten and that even though i still struggle with anxiety… other people really don’t affect me like they used.

I’ve been so very porous for so long and now i’m finally not… I have this different relationship with myself that is building. one that is more rooted. i’ve been contending with self confidence and also feeling frustrated by my own entitlement… and that in itself is exhausting… to be down on myself so much because ultimately i feel so disempowered in the first place. But I just had to sit back and really see what it was that I wasn’t integrating about the time, what wasn’t I seeing? …Because I keep circling back to the same issue, the same emptiness, the same trauma.