Hello darling ones,
How have you been?
Just a war in Ukraine and an entire revolution led by women in Iran… yes, what are the times? I’m trying to comprehend them, to be in them, but as much as I need to be out in the world, to feel it in my fingertips, I’m hungry to find resolve outside of it.
Like many of us/ many of you… I’m finding myself in a consistent low hum depression. I have some peaks, like days like today, where it’s easier to access joy. Things feel both unsatisfying and delicious at the same time, like they are combined in some summer swirl cone, two oppositional flavors mixed into one, and it’s surreal… to say the least.
Every time I come up for water I’m shocked at how deep I allowed myself to swim, but there’s apart of me that worries if I’ll always prefer the deep dark shadows of my mind, whether I prefer to go deep as a coping mechanism or just a preference? Or maybe both? The question comes to mind… could I ever be any different?